Day 29: A little recap

So today is Day 29, and I'm shocked at how fast the month went.  I feel like a different person, and I can't even begin to tell you how happy I am that I even attempted this challenge.  My husband will tell you that I tend towards being an "80%-er", which means I take things to about 80% and then get bored with them.  Finishing what I start is one of my life goals for this year, and I'm pleasantly surprised and happy that I am doing finishing the Whole 30 challenge.  (I'm still struggling with the laundry…why is it so hard to get it from the dryer to the basket and then into the dressers/closets? please someone tell me…)

So, here is a bit of a recap of my jouney.

This is what my life used to be like:
I have always prided myself on my intellect, my brains, my smarts.  My body, well…..that's been another battle.  In my adult life I have wrestled with it, ignored it, hated it, bashed it, felt betrayed by it, been a stranger to it…..etc, etc, etc.  The only time I ever felt good about my body was when I was pregnant with my son, when I felt round and feminine and powerful. As soon as I went through his rocky birth, I was back to being pretty pissed off.  In January of this year, I decided that I wanted to take some time to focus on my health, my career, my family, and quite frankly MY happiness (and not only the happiness of the people in my life…huge challenge for me!)

It's not a unique story.   After spending probably over $100,000 on books, classes, workshops, online courses, therapy, coaching, and every diet program in the world, I decided I was going to listen to my body.   I knew that intuitively I knew the right way to eat for ME, for my body, was to eat NO manufactured carbs, lean protein, and lots of fresh fruits and veggies.  I had NO idea about the sugar connection.  Then I watched this video, and my whole view shifted. It just made sense to me.

The funny thing about this past month is the years of denial I had to weather in order to get here.  I downloaded the Whole30 program almost a year ago, read it, and decided that I didn't like their 'take no bullshit tone.' I wasn't ready.  I didn't want to trust my body.  Deep down I was afraid of failing again.

I don't know what changed really, I just decided that I wanted to try it and see what happened.  I'll admit I was skeptical, both of how I would feel and also if it would work.  I was one of those people who sang the anthem of "I've tried everything, I just must be stuck here in this place."  Writing this blog and telling everyone I know was also a big part of my success.  I wanted people to know that someone who knew how to put on a good show of self acceptance and confidence was struggling (and hopefully overcoming!)

One of the tenants of the program is that if you "cheat" or mess up, you start over. From day one. ONE.  I did NOT want my 30 days to turn into 45 days or 60 days, so I was very motivated to be careful.  I was also motivated by the friends and family who read this blog.  I wanted to follow through.

Now that the challenge is almost up, I am moving forward.  Tomorrow, on the offical day 30, I will lay out my plans for the future.  But a big clue, is I finally feel like I'm IN MY BODY, and I'm happy, rested and healthy.  I can't even tell you how much that is worth to me.

If you're ready to join me, let me know. I'm doing this with a group of people in October.  Lots of prep in September!  If you are ready to start Sept 1st, let me know that too!