Day 20: It's not about willpower. At all.

Today at the Hy-Vee, I spent a good 5 minutes staring at this: A WALL OF CANDY. My camera couldn't even capture all of it, only half.  I suppose this is meant to be to prepare us for Halloween?  TWO MONTHS FROM NOW?

So, as I was standing there staring at this, smelling the plastic chocolatey smell, I thought, this is not about willpower.  If it was, I would have started at one end and mowed my way through.  But, I didn't want it.  Any of it.

So, here is the truth.  The only way I can understand this is that my biology is changing.  I felt no desire, no craving, no interest in this.  In addition to the epic wall of sugar,  I noticed that the bakery smelled delicious, that the pizza that they were serving as samples looked good, but I didn't feel like I wanted to have it.

I can't even begin to tell you what a huge change this is for me.  Normally, I would say I have "no willpower."  But when the sugar is out of your system, it goes way beyond willpower.  I feel able to make better decisions, decisions that are in the best interest of my body.

I have never, ever felt this way on ANY of the 100, 000, 000, 001 different attempts to eat healthy.  Now that is something!